intelligent people are full of doubts

October 12, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

There was never a time that I don’t question myself.

Am I right ?

Did I come too strong ?

Was that a mistake ?

Left or right ?

Which way is the best way ?

All the time.

I keep myself intact as I constantly ask myself and anyone around me about what I am about to do.

Sometimes although I already did, I still question myself and everybody around me again.

Why is that ?

Because intelligent people knows.

They know what does it takes to do it right.

Planning, executing, planning, executing.

And there comes observing. Learning. Understanding.

Possibilities. Possibilities. Possibilities.

If you are thinking about possibilities that means you are open for new things.

To learn, to adapt, to experience.

To make better plans.

To learn from executions.

That makes excellence.

Those intelligent people understood that we live in a world of imperfection. No one is ever perfect as we see each problem differently from one to the other.

Stay awake girls.
And be aware.

Burn that bridge

July 31, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

There come a time when you must do the things you might not realize you could.

I am an “architect”. I build things.

Architectures are very close with building blocks. Infrastructures.

Like most technical geeks we see things differently.

We not only come up with the list of needs to build the future but we also identify what is lacking.

Since building is one thing and making it come alive is another, we began to connect the dots and identify more findings.

It is my job to identify.

From the minute i understood the situation, i begin the journey.

As i learn more about the situation, i begin to discover things that are not supposed to be.

I begin to find missing links, pathway, tools and sometimes vehicles also machines.

The funny thing about this journey, sometimes, some feel offended.

Where the joke is entirely on those who did not do anything.

Lived in comfort.

So what to do? I burn ’em.

Bridges that burned was nessecary.

Bridges that was not , i crossed.

As hard as it may seem, there’s no way it can’t be done.

It’s not about commitment or power or anything in related.

It was an order.

And how do i feel now ? Nauseus. Anxious. Ugly. And relieved.

Hell, i’ ll do it again if i must.

Because at the end of the day, i am here because of an order.

Those who understand, they join me.

They join because they understand.

They understand that at the end of the road they will feel the benefits.

Those who dont usually mock me. Undermind me.

I dont mind. Nevermind.

Burn.

Its all about the mindset

July 31, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

How can you tell someone what to do when that person has no idea about the concept.

No senior person can comprehend when the reality is, they have none experience. At all.

Any educational process weather it is a socialization of some sort of fundamentals. A series if training sessions or a mind blowing talkshow to open up their eyes is as far as you go.

So how far is too far ?

Under capacity. So do speak.

It doesnt matter spearhead partnerships supports along the way.

We can only let the nature drive its course.

Nevertheless we try our best to make it easy on them. So easy that it is ridicoulous !

Again, i look at the page on my deck and say,

Its all there !

What more do you need to explain ? Cant you see ?

(Sigh)

It is not my responsibilty anymore now. I’ve done my part.

Over and over and over again.

Now its your time to move.

Check mate.

🙂

Am i alexithymia ?

July 29, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

No, of course not.

I have no problem showing off my feelings. At all.

But i do have problem in explaining words that come from inside my minds.

Or maybe, its the people who do not want to understand?

Just hear and not listen.

Just look and refuse to see.

And that makes it so hard to explain the feelings. My feelings.

Occur because of that.

Alexithymia.

Buy the book

Fearless thoughts

July 29, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

Some might not understand. Me.

Some might do.

One thing i do know is that i’m learning to combine.

And will make proud for those who support.

Actions than words

July 29, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

Pagi2 menemukan permintaan maaf seseorang atas kesalahan yang sangat menyakitkan. Dia tidak tahu bahwa detik itu juga sudah saya maafkan. Bahkan saat kedua kalinya dia melakukan kesalahan kembali.

Respect is another thing.

I’ve lost the ability to respect because of how the faults was done. Twice.

I failed to believe in words for those that came from indignity.

I am however a firm believer of 2nd chances.

If by those words are supported by real actions.

Will see.

Strength, Dignity, Fearless

July 13, 2014August 25, 2017Leave a comment

I understand the role that was unintentionally bestowed upon me. It was bigger than I have expected. The steps that I had to make was not easy as it reveals many discovery.

Consistently the way to go is only to take achievements as craftsmanship. Evidently it did.

Those who understand will join me embrace this new age as virtue will become of them at the end of the road.